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  • Jul. 12th, 2009 at 1:45 PM
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I'm going to be in Boston next week. July 21st through the 27th. Well, those are the days I'm on vacation. The actual days I'm in boston may vary a bit here or there. If anyone of you in Boston want to get together to show me some local sights (places to eat, places I should see, etc) please contact me! Also, if anyone wants to offer a bald girl a couch for a night or two, that'd be great too as it would save me some money on my trip :)

--Sara

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so heartfelt...

  • Jun. 25th, 2009 at 2:49 PM
Anthony Rapp
I just have to say that the song "Visits to You" by Anthony Rapp is one of the most heartfelt and touching songs I've ever heard.

He wrote the song while his mom was dying from cancer. She lived in Chicago and he was in NYC in a Broadway show that ate up most of his time. Every free day he had though he'd try to fly home and visit her.

The song is about his knowing that soon his visits to her will come to an end. It makes me cry almost every time I hear it.

Where do I begin?

  • Jun. 18th, 2009 at 11:57 PM
so much to say
Well, I know I have not updated in eons here. A lot has happened since my last proper update. Far too much to catch everyone up on.

So, we'll go with the basics as of late.

I am sick. Have been sick for awhile in various ways but just recently got a diagnosis that changed everything. I have cancer. More specifically, Stage 3 Melanoma. I started a new blog to keep my family updated on everything going on. It can be found here if anyone wants to follow it: http://sara-willi.blogspot.com/

I have become the forever optimist because I refuse to believe that 27 years is all I will get on this earth. Since my cousin died back in 1999, I have had the mantra of living each day as your last because you never know what tomorrow brings. Now, that becomes more poignant than ever before. I hope to have another 60 years of life ahead of me, but if I don't and I only get another 6 months, then I want to make the best of them.

I have been getting in contact with old friends that have fallen by the wayside for one reason or another. Making sure everyone knows how important they have been to me. "Forget regret or life is yours to miss. No other road. No other way. No day but today." is a theme in the musical Rent that means a lot to me. Now it's become my life theme.

I have been traveling a lot to see Rent live. I consider it akin to group therapy for me. 

If anyone has any questions/concerns/well wishes/whatever, feel free to comment or email me or call me.

If you are a friend of mine on here, you are there for a reason. I love you all whether you played a small part in the ensemble or a leading role in my life. You have played a part in my life regardless.

<3
Sara

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1. I both despise the idea of living back in Chardon, Ohio again and yet secretly wish for it every day. There are certain things I hated about being there and yet I am very family orientated. All my family is in Northeast Ohio with very few exceptions and I hate being so far from them.

2. I spent so many years with my ex that it left me devastated when we broke up. Yet, looking back, I am so extremely happy that things ended when and how they did. Otherwise, I wouldn't be where I am today.

3. There is a very slim chance that I will be able to carry children. I've already had four miscarriages.

4. I desperately want to be a mother some day. It saddens me to think that it may not be possible. At least not in the biological sense.

5. I am a hopeless romantic and believe in fairy tales. Yet, I'm cynical and jaded and think it will never happen to me.

6. I have a tendency to fall hard and fast for people I truly care about and can foresee a potential future with. I've only had three boyfriends but they were all long term. I'm currently living with my third boyfriend.

7. I love to dance. I never would have guessed myself to be a dancer. However, my last roommate was a ballroom dance instructor and I instantly fell in love with dancing. I used to go dancing 3-5 nights a week.

8. I have serious difficulties sleeping. I have for as long as I can remember. I sleep in four hour increments usually and it's a restless four hours to boot.

9. I have friends all over the world and that makes me smile sometimes.

10. Kingdom of Loathing (www.kingdomofloathing.com
) has changed my life. I can't imagine where I'd be today without the friendships I've made through fellow players of that game. I've traveled all over the country because of it too. It's ultimately what brought me to Chicago.

11. I want to visit San Diego and San Francisco. I've tried to visit San Fran twice now and plans fell through both times but I will make it one day! I also really want to make it to London seeing as my plans fell through for that trip too. Thankfully I have friends in all the above places so I should be able to save on room and board when I do make it there.

12. I have two younger siblings. My sister is six years younger thank me. My brother is 13 years younger than me. (We are spread out because my mother had difficulties carrying children, same problem I have actually.) I love my siblings dearly no matter how much they drive me insane sometimes. I would do anything, give anything, to ensure their happiness.

13. Going along with the above statement, I'm extremely proud of the young woman my sister has become. The person she was before Haylie was born and the person she is now are complete 180's of one another. She has grown into a responsible, caring, loving, wonderful mother and sister.

14. I don't watch much TV but when I find a show I like, I become obsessed. Alias was my first obsession. Then Heros. And now NCIS and House.

15. I refuse to give up on relationships. I will fight until the bitter end. I'm always optimistic that it will work out no matter how obvious it is otherwise. I mean relationships of both friends and boyfriends.

16. I am a closet geek. My fellow geeky friends know all too well how geeky I am. However, my other friends are always shocked to learn just how bad I can be.

17. My ultimate goal is to be a high school math teacher. Instead, I work in banking right now (and have for the past 8 years).

18. I love both my parents dearly but they have both left me severely disappointed in many ways over the years. Especially with both of their actions and attitudes through their divorce this past year.

19. My mother is a complete failure at being a mother. As such, I have raised my brother practically on my own and to some extent my sister too. I brought my brother out here for a month last summer to get him away from our parents and so he could see what it was like being in a real city.

20. I always have to have a drink with me whether it be soda, kool aid, juice, coffee, etc. I start to stress out if I not only don't have a drink, but don't see a foreseeable way of obtaining one in the near future. I"m just always thirsty. Also, I don't like water unless it's flavored with at least some lemon juice.

21. I had two dogs growing up and one of my own now. The two I had growing up were both Siberian Huskies. The dog I have now is a mixed breed from the dog shelter but it looks like a Siberian Husky / German Shepherd mix. I love the black and white and fluffiness of huskies. My dog is like my pseudo child. I love him just like one.

22. When I was 16 my cousin died in a tragic car accident. He was 17 at the time. He was my best friend and like a brother to me. It took me years to overcome the grief. I am a much stronger and grounded person now then I was before then though.

23. I lived with my grandma and two older cousins for the first 5 years of my life (and was there all the time for the next few after that). Sometimes, I think of my grandmother as my mother as she was the best motherly figure in my life. I tend to think of my older cousins as my older sisters. Especially Sherri. She's almost 10 years to the day older than me (her birthday is 2 weeks after mine). Even though we don't talk much these days because of where life has taken us, I miss her terribly. When I found out my parents were getting divorced, she was the first person I called outside of my siblings.

24. I've had an obsession with the VW Jetta TDi since 2001. One day I will own one. :)

25. I am horrible at keeping in touch with my friends but I love them all dearly. I always have grand plans of calling or emailing to keep in better contact and never do like I want to.

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Life as of today...

  • Jan. 25th, 2009 at 1:31 AM
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  • 22:20 Just bought a wii today. Downloaded Mario Bros 3 for it and am playing that. I feel like I'm 8 again and loving it! #

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Cards

  • Nov. 26th, 2008 at 12:06 PM
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Ok, I plan on sending out holiday cards. I want people to hopefully receive them before the new year so I'm planning ahead. I have most of the addresses I need, I think. However, anyone who'd like a card (or anyone who's moved in the last year), just leave me your address and I will get one out to you sometime before Valentine's Day :)

<3

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Life as of today...

  • Nov. 24th, 2008 at 1:22 AM
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  • 17:59 I have acquired my own bacon salt for the first time ever. Now, what to try it with? #

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  • Nov. 20th, 2008 at 1:11 AM
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  • 00:10 @the_wombat wish them some good vibes. Since they left chicago here their tour has had one snafu after another. #

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Nov. 16th, 2008

  • 11:44 AM
so much to say
So, I've met a guy. The avatar says it all. There's so much to say. I don't know where to start. I don't know what to think. I don't know what to feel. I'm rather jaded and cynical when it comes to the very theory of relationships because of my past. But, I also realize, it's not fair to treat him a certain way just because of how I've been treated in the past. I'm currently sitting on his couch while he is off helping his boss and then taking care of some work stuff. Sitting here alone has me thinking. Actually, to be more accurate, it has my mind racing. Those that know me, know that I have a tendency to fall fast and hard for someone. This time I'm trying to be more reserved and guarded because the sooner I fall, the sooner I set myself up for heartache. If I keep my feelings in check then, in theory, I can't be hurt as bad. I've seen him every day for the past 10 days now since I met him. I just... I dunno. Just thinking in print I suppose. Trying to get my thoughts in some semblance of order. In turn, all of you all get a real update to my LJ. If there's anyone that actually follows this journal, they know that that's a true rarity.

<3

PS: Congratulations go out to my best friend James and the woman that agreed to marry him. I love you dearly James and I wish you all the happiness in the world. (And, I am planning a trip to visit in the next few months so that I can meet this lovely lady that has stolen your heart!)

Life as of today...

  • Nov. 15th, 2008 at 12:48 AM
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  • 17:49 @mc_frontalot Drive carefully on your trip. Things have got to start looking up at some point, right? #
  • 18:21 @espio I'm so proud of you! (Also extremely jealous right now...) #
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  • Nov. 5th, 2008 at 12:44 AM
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  • 06:30 Last year wasn't a presidential elec. And one of the biggest ones in history. No matter who wins, its historical. #
  • 06:34 @espio forgot to put the header at the begining of my reply to you :-) #
  • 09:57 @espio I voted two weeks ago with my absentee ballot. I'm covered! #
  • 22:24 Why is no one awake when I wanna converse about the election results with them? #
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  • Oct. 31st, 2008 at 12:20 AM
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  • 13:50 Having a car to use over the weekend is worth getting up at 4am to take the train/subway to midway airport. Right? Gotta love chicago pu ... #

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  • Oct. 29th, 2008 at 12:17 AM
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  • 15:24 I don't understand all you people that are giddy over snow. Me, I know it means bitter cold for the next 6-8 months. #

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  • Oct. 24th, 2008 at 12:09 AM
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  • 18:19 @Mc_frontalot I already sent my email so I can help out again this year! #

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  • Oct. 18th, 2008 at 12:16 AM
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  • 17:09 @espio and @thisispoki you two need to get AIM and stop spamming my twitter :-P #

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Heh

  • Oct. 16th, 2008 at 10:46 PM
Sexy Math

Your result for The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test...

Modern, Cool Nerd

83 % Nerd, 83% Geek, 17% Dork

 

For The Record:



A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.

A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.

A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.



You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd.



Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)!


Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

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Life as of today...

  • Oct. 5th, 2008 at 12:07 AM
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  • 09:40 45 min of sleep is not enough for a night #

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  • Oct. 4th, 2008 at 12:12 AM
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  • 10:39 Aren't I supposed to wake up as the day goes on and NOT get progressively more tired? #

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  • Oct. 3rd, 2008 at 12:05 AM
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  • 11:49 @Albassoon I'm so with you girl. I feel your pain. #

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  • Oct. 2nd, 2008 at 12:06 AM
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  • 11:52 I really wish that people would stop panicking. It'd make my job much easier. #

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